Before Winter Sets In

Before Winter Sets In

My daughter's well is

so shallow, and dirty, she

needs a new one dug

Sd.

from Facebook post by Isadora Galjour

The Book Of Questions #170

Keep it. None of the other stuff matters. I would keep it. Someone walking around with $5,000 and then drops it is going to be OK.

Further, I try to live my life such that my wealth spread. If I have 5,000 new dollars, in some way others will benefit.

What gets lost in these types of questions is how much dumb luck plays a part in most people's wealth. You found a wallet. Someone else was born a straight white male. Someone else knows the guy who knows the guy.

Now, these situations do not preclude "paying it forward". But seldom is the question asked of them, what would you do if you found a wallet full of privilege.

The Book Of Questions #118

I count on it. I encourage them to. Why aren't they? Are you saying they're not? What's the point in having friends if they don't? Geez, people, you're only making it worse by not saying!

“out of the window”

Yes, I'm a little jealous of Richard Russell. I hate to admit it. I'd, of course, planned to be more subtle. so much so as to leave it a question what even happened. But, damn! This guy! This guy lived his choice spectacularly. And there's the lesson. When you've accepted your control of your death, live your control of your life. And always be prepared to exit.

doghair

The next weekend is the only cure for post party depression.

The Book Of Questions #202

Quid est veritas?

Perjury is the offense of willfully telling an untruth in a court after having taken an oath or affirmation. So if I say my friend was driving carefully, do you know that I know the meaning of careful? Do we agree on that definition?

Unrequited

Unrequited

he’s come

to see her again.

(like a tongue that always worms

its way to the sore)

as if

there were points for persistence

as if

she were rote.

he’s come again

a fistfull of flowers

limp with sweat

shallow breaths propel

prepared speeches he licks

his lips like boots knock

at the door no one answers

he’ll be back.

he’ll count the stars for her

and name them:

Prometheus at the north;

Diogenes, the dog star;

the twins, Job and Sitva;

and Sissyphus

fading blue in the east.

Sd.

Mongee

You ever just decide you're going to let it happen? You're going to let yourself go insane. I don't mean go crazy and have that third cosmopolitan. Or say, fuck it, and wear your pajamas and slippers to the grocery. I'm not even talking about cussing out your co-worker. I mean just giving in to the mental breakdown that has been nagging at you for so long. Stopping. Stop saying, Well I guess I have to eat something. Recognizing that, no, you don't have to shower - ever. Why try to make conversation or sense with anyone else? I'm talking about being so tired and broken down by the world you surrender. They want to kick you out, they bump and push against you, fine. Maybe let them.

Just me?

Adding a half pack of ramen noodles to the Adkins meal from the freezer: Sometimes the carb, calorie, cost balance just has to work that way.

Being healthy and poor really just ain't a thing no more

Thus bad begins, and worse remains behind

Big cities can be mean, but small towns are downright cruel.

In Dependence Day

When you're alone, the holidays, even the stupid ones, can be the loneliest times.

a drop in the bucket

I decided I need to drink more water and as encouragement I web searched images of before and after pictures of people who drank more water. Really not that different.

I'm doing it anyway.

The Book Of Questions #72

Chauffeur.

BJz

Jack and Jill went up the hill
To shut down a museum.
Now everyone is going apeshit
For the privilege just to see 'em.

#basic

The Book Of Questions #45

Yes. Yes.

dissolution

my lungs suffocate
my heart can't keep its wits
my liver is a madman
crumbling from the head
down
the rain
won't
stop

151,600

Every day I have survivor's guilt.

L

Fifty until till fifty.

Punching back

I punched the monster in the face, just as I'd intended to do. The monster snickered and pulled me back into its fold. Then I learned the monster doesn't matter.

Just walk away.

Common Sense

But I know no matter what the waitress brings
I shall drink it and always be full, yeah I will drink it and always be full
- Acts 10:9-23

The Book Of Questions #114

Yes.

I think I have that too.

"I think I'm sick, and I don't know if my ailment has a name. It's just me sitting and staring at the internet or the television for long periods of time, interspersed by trying to not do that and then lying about what I've been doing. And then I'll get so excited about something that the excitement overwhelms me and I can't sleep or do anything and I just am in love with everything but can't figure out how to make myself work in the world."
- Mistress America,  Noah Baumbach, Greta Gerwig

Return Calls Come Back and Haunt

i and i

i love you and i
don't understand why we are
being cruel to us

Shine A Little Light by Dream System 8

This song sounds like the thrill-threaded tranquility of the first time you feel comfortable enough to lay your head in the lap of your sweetheart.

Enjoy.

Good night

Sometimes you just want someone to say goodnight to.

just a thought

Helpful. I mean, I'd have to sing it to myself. But still. better than nothing.

Take a moment to think of just 

Flexibility, love and trust 

Take a moment to think of just 

Flexibility, love and trust 

Here comes a thought 

That might alarm you 

 What someone said 

And how it harmed you 

Something you did 

That failed to be charming 

Things that you said are 

Suddenly swarming, and oh 

You're losing sight 

You're losing touch 

All these little things seem 

To matter so much 

That they confuse you 

That I might lose you 

Take a moment, remind yourself to 

Take a moment and find yourself 

Take a moment to ask yourself if 

This is how we fall apart? 

But it's not

It's okay

 You've got nothing, 

Got nothing,

Got nothing to fear 

I'm here

Here comes a thought 

That might alarm me 

What someone said 

And how it harmed me 

Something I did 

That failed to be charming 

Things that I said are 

Suddenly swarming, and oh I'm losing sight I'm losing touch 

All this little things seem 

To matter so much 

That they confuse me 

That I might lose me

Take a moment, remind yourself 

To take a moment and find yourself 

Take a moment and ask yourself if 

This is how we fall apart?

But it's not

 It's okay

 I've got nothing 

Got nothing,

Got nothing to fear 

 I'm here

And it was just a thought 

 Just a thought

It's okay

We can watch

We can watch them go by 

From here

Take a moment to think of just 

Flexibility, love and trust 

Take a moment to think of just 

Flexibility, love and trust

- Rebecca Sugar