Saturday, July 21, 2018

Unrequited

Unrequited
he’s come
to see her again.
(like a tongue that always worms
its way to the sore)
as if
there were points for persistence
as if
she were rote.
he’s come again
a fistfull of flowers
limp with sweat
shallow breaths propel
prepared speeches he licks
his lips like boots knock
at the door no one answers
he’ll be back.
he’ll count the stars for her
and name them:
Prometheus at the north;
Diogenes, the dog star;
the twins, Job and Sitva;
and Sissyphus
fading blue in the east.
Sd.

Friday, July 20, 2018

Mongee

You ever just decide you're going to let it happen? You're going to let yourself go insane. I don't mean go crazy and have that third cosmopolitan. Or say, fuck it, and wear your pajamas and slippers to the grocery. I'm not even talking about cussing out your co-worker. I mean just giving in to the mental breakdown that has been nagging at you for so long. Stopping. Stop saying, Well I guess I have to eat something. Recognizing that, no, you don't have to shower - ever. Why try to make conversation or sense with anyone else? I'm talking about being so tired and broken down by the world you surrender. They want to kick you out, they bump and push against you, fine. Maybe let them.

Just me?

Sunday, July 8, 2018

Adding a half pack of ramen noodles to the Adkins meal from the freezer: Sometimes the carb, calorie, cost balance just has to work that way.

Being healthy and poor really just ain't a thing no more

Friday, July 6, 2018

Thus bad begins, and worse remains behind

Big cities can be mean, but small towns are downright cruel.

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

In Dependence Day

When you're alone, the holidays, even the stupid ones, can be the loneliest times.

Tuesday, July 3, 2018

a drop in the bucket

I decided I need to drink more water and as encouragement I web searched images of before and after pictures of people who drank more water. Really not that different.

I'm doing it anyway.